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I’ve been really, really sad; but not kill-myself kind of sad. Several months back I had read about profound grief that accompanies Christmas for some, actually many people! If you arrived here by a search-engine link for keywords, “Suicide,” or “Kill Myself,” and especially if you’re impaired by drugs or alcohol, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and call 911.

If you’ve had thoughts about dying today, or if you’ve just survived an attempt to take your own life, or if you tried to take your own life but are conscious, there is still hope! If you were happy, you would NOT want to die!

Have you wished, if only my: girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife/father/mother/friend/sister/brother/daughter/son or God Almighty Himself would come back to me/understand me/agree with me/believe me/have faith in me/give me another chance/forgive me/hold me/have mercy upon me/leave me alone or just give me what I want

I could be happy, relieved, peaceful, content and safe? Do you feel alone, disconnected, worthless, tired, abused, mad, sad, afraid, ashamed, hurt, OR, maybe, you really don’t know exactly how or what you’re feeling?

That’s a horrible way to feel, and whoever made you feel so bad should care enough to listen to you and love you! I’m serious! You deserve better than what you got, but not just because you’re you, and you’re better than other people.

You’re not better than other people, but you’re not worse than anyone else! Still, you deserve better! If you’ve tried everything but still you’re unhappy, there’s nothing I can write (no written word) that will solve your unhappiness.

But I can appeal to your rational mind and give you hope. If you can cling to an emotional life-preserver, this next part will lead you to safe harbour, renewal, catharsis, and, ultimately, happiness!

Again, if you think you’re going to die, or think you might kill yourself, or you know someone else who might do that, call 911, OR, call anyone! But be smart about it. Don’t seek the counsel of enemies! If you live long enough, which I hope you do, because you’re beautiful, you’ll come to realize a profound Truth about people, and about Almighty God!

I’m sorry in a way, because of the little help available to those who suffer—but glad to say that my word may offer hope even for the hopeless. Everyone needs something, and everyone has something someone else needs. When giving and receiving are balanced, people are happy.

Public safety personnel, i.e. police, fire, emergency medical (EMTs); doctors and medical staff; mental-health professionals, clergy, counselors, psychologists and social workers want to save your life. Few people face death and recover all by themselves. There’s no shame in reaching out for help!

Yes!, contemplating one’s own fate, even if it is by one’s own hand, is still the act of staring death in the face! Everyone will eventually die, but no one must die at any particular time. You can live! So, here are the facts.

Those depressed and grieving to the point of despair are surprisingly rational, because they’ve abandoned the use of emotion. Emotion only gets in the way of a rational mind. Logically speaking—without consideration of the superfluous, such as rehashing old useless emotions—an evil illusion may present death as the only practical, viable and desirable option.

After all, once you’ve tried everything, what’s left to try? Or perhaps you’ve lost control over another person, and you’re sole recourse to prove that person wrong is to die. Finally, everyone will know you were right, and they were all wrong. Congratulations!, you win except you’ll be dead, so it won’t matter. And your soul will be burned alive for all eternity, for the final impenitent sin of suicide.

If that isn’t enough, call someone up and just ask them, “Would you be sad if I died?” You don’t have to say anything else. See what they say. If you need reassurance, make a second call. If everyone agrees that they don’t care, and no one will be sad, Jesus Christ will still be sad, because He died so that you might have life!

Because secular-humanism reduces the value of life to a summation of one’s wealth and reproductive potential, it’s difficult to understand the uniqueness that makes each human life priceless. Say you worked hard on a painting(s) or writing song(s) or writing literature. OR, say you have five children, or two, or one.

You place value on what you create, because part of you is in each creation. Well, Almighty God Created you, and you are the only you who ever was, is now, or that ever will be! There is no one just like you, and there never will be again. Almighty God has placed a unique part of Himself in you!

Each person is one-of-a-kind, living, breathing, and made in the image and likeness of Almighty God! Each person is worth infinitely more than their temporal body (the human body), because the body is used only to give birth to, and to perfect the soul.

Once the soul is prepared, the body is but an encumbrance; a prison. Fear of death is not universal. It is a common symptom of a spiritual ailment. Fear of death ceases while the breath of life remains, under one of two possible conditions but not both: spiritual perfection or spiritual death.

Spiritual perfection is when the soul knows its final destiny, and is content. Spiritual death is when the heart stops communicating with the soul. Fear of death is caused by the brain’s interpretation of communication between the soul and the heart. The brain must place all knowledge within the context of human experience, or it can’t understand anything.

The heart can understand the fear of a soul that knows it will burn in Hell for eternity, but the mind can be made intentionally ignorant. It understands the relationship between danger and fear, but it restricts the concept of existence to the three-dimensional reality.

Thus, fear of eternal torture in flames is transformed into an illusion: fear of death of the temporal organic husk; death of the human body, because the ignorant view physical death the same way they view eternal damnation! The Truth remains unchanged. Absent of Atonement by The Perfect Living Sacrifice of Jesus Christ, the soul will burn in everlasting fire, regardless of what any particular individual believes. That’s just the way it is. No one is required to like it.

What was Truth is Truth now, and it always will be Truth. There is One Truth! Everything else is wrong! But no one is fit to judge the eternal destiny of another. However, those who have The Spirit of God within are able to judge all men. But, no one but God Himself is given Authority to Judge a man of the spirit!

When a child is born, he/she identifies to the masculine voice according to gender, either in contrast or similarity to masculinity!

If the masculine parent—the father—speaks Truth (God’s Word in man’s language; the holy Bible), and the child’s mother speaks a silent example of chastity, purity and sacrificial love, like The Blessed Virgin Mother, the child will be a Son of God, like Jesus.

The child’s mind will know Truth, and his heart will know Love. The mind that knows Truth loves his own heart that knows Love, and it is this love that is the soul. Higher life-forms come from lower life-forms, and so it is with man’s, or woman’s, immortal soul.

In reality, parents fall short of a child’s expectations. But if the child practices Roman Catholicism, in every way his/her parents fall short of the Divine ideal, God The Father and The Eternal Blessed Virgin Mother, Mary Most Holy, will fill in the gaps (emotional holes) with Their complimentary Masculine Truth and Mother’s Love.

There’s no way to prove on paper that Roman Catholicism is the correct religion, but if you seek emotional wholeness, happiness, freedom, economic independence, good health, low stress, high satisfaction and ultimate reward, Roman Catholicism is what you want!

However, nothing worth having is easily gotten. Authentic reward sensations are produced by appropriate behavior and the consequent neurochemical cascade (release of dopamine). These are: Love, Peace, Joy, A sense of well-being, and A sense of accomplishment.

If you don’t have those, life seems pointless. Intentional sin produces convincing counterfeits that mimic authentic reward sensations:

  1. Lust or limerance (the sensation of new romance) in the place of Love;
  2. Exhaustion, seclusion, and diversion in the place of Peace;
  3. Fool’s mirth in the place of Joy;
  4. Euphoria in place of A sense of well-being;
  5. Senseless risk, blind acquisition of wealth, sating the lust for vengeance, self-absorption (egomania), and getting away with it, in place of A sense of accomplishment!

Intentional sin is insidious (Latin: cunning ambush; When adverse symptoms first appear, the damage is irreversible.), causing idiopathic ailments (of unknown origin). With each repetition of sin, the dopamine spike is slightly suppressed, and the ensuing plunge—which produces the sensation of guilt—is deeper.

Within a short time, the need to commit the sin of choice is neurochemically embedded within the victim’s body. You can get back up to zero through Atonement by The Perfect Living Sacrifice of Jesus! Then you have a clean slate. Dopamine levels rise to normal, and guilt no longer threatens despair. And, it’s free. The Love is fantastic. Many people have willingly been tortured to death, for the love of God’s Love, rather than deny His Holy Name!

Of note is heartbreak. Human females are biologically programmed to mate exclusively for life. The neurochemical mechanism necessitating this behavior is slightly different than the dopamine reward-cascade, but once a woman has suffered the virgin’s share in the Pain of Atonement of God The Son, if she then abandons the father of her children, she will never be happy again. If her husband dies of grief consequent to his abandonment, and the woman remarries, she bears the indelible curse of the black widow.

That’s the cause of heartbreak. Now, when the sinner’s dopamine level is suppressed sufficiently by guilt, life itself depends on the sin-induced dopamine spikes. Otherwise, the ensuing despair (hopelessness) causes suicide!

So, despair is disguised guilt. And, guilt for sin will eventually cause despair. But all people are born with genetic mutation that results from the sins of dead ancestors, passed on to future generations, through human chromosomes. These genetic mutations are collectively known as, roots of ancient doom, ancestral guilt, or ancestral curses! They are the cause of addiction. In 12-step programs, members hear speak about hitting rock bottom. This is the concept of reaching a point of neurochemical imbalance so severe that reward-deficiency syndrome (more on this later) is actually preferable. The unbearable and crippling emotional dysfunction that leads a person to intentional intoxication–without a clue that this is abnormal; that most people dislike chemically induced physical, mental and emotional impairment–is preferred by those who have experienced even worse.

It is these genetic mutations that cause reward deficiency syndrome (addiction): mutations on certain alleles of certain dopamine-receptor genes. The biological effect is by Immutable Divine Dictum recorded in the holy Bible, book of Exodus, Chapter 20, Verses 2-6:

I AM The LORD your God, Who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of that house of bondage. You shall not have other gods beside Me. You shall not make for yourselves an idol or a likeness of anything in the heavens above or on the earth below, or in the waters under the earth; you shall not bow down before them or serve them.

For I, The LORD, your God, AM a jealous God, inflicting punishment for the iniquities of the fathers on the children of those who hate Me, down to the third and fourth generations; but showing Loving Kindness down to the thousandth generation of those who love Me and keep My Commandments.

** The Word of The Lord **

** Thanks be to God. **

Mary, The Mother of God, verifies the latter part of the above, in the Book of Luke, Chapter One, Verses: 46-55. Bold text refers to the above bold text:

And Mary said:

“My soul proclaims the Greatness of The Lord;

my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.

For He has looked with favor upon His lowly handmaid;

Behold, from this generation forward all people shall call me blessed.

The Almighty has done great things for me,

and Holy is His Name.

He has shown Mercy to those who fear Him,

in every generation.

He has shown the Strength of His arm.

He has shattered the proud in their conceit,

and toppled rulers from their thrones.

He has exalted the lowly.

He has filled the hungry with good things;

But the rich He has sent away empty.

He has remembered His Promise to His servant, Israel;

A Promise of Mercy,

To Abraham and his descendants, forever.

** The Word of The Lord **

** Thanks be to God. **

Read out loud, several times, the immortal words of Mary Most Holy. If you’re male, in place of the words, lowly handmaid, say, His son. Consecrate yourself to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, and to the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Confess your sins, claim atonement by The Perfect Living Sacrifice of Jesus, plead for your Heavenly Father’s Mercy upon your wretched soul, that you might have life; life as you have never known before!

Visit a Catholic Church, and enroll in the Rite of Catholic Initiation for Adults. If you are not Baptized, you can receive the Sacraments of Baptism, AND, Holy Communion, Confession and Confirmation. Isn’t that exciting!? The day of my first Holy Communion was the best day of my life. If you’ve been Baptized, you don’t require Baptism again. But you still get to receive the other Sacraments! Holy Roman Catholic Mass is the most beautiful thing within the temporal Universe!

Rid your home of all sources of spiritual darkness:

Occult paraphernalia, lucky talismans or charms, poker and/or tarot cards, horoscopes, new-age books, magic crystals, yoga stuff, anything related to religions foreign to Christianity, objects that bear pagan symbols, idols, Buddhas, gargoyles, dice, birth-control devices, photos and other lingering objects from illicit relationships (Valuable gifts should be returned to the giver. Inexpensive gifts may be passed through a flame, while reciting the words (but not unless you’ve been baptized), “May the demons released be bound and cast out, by The Blood of Jesus; in The Name of Jesus; by The Name above all other names, by The Power of Jesus, and by The Authority of The Holy Spirit)!

Dispose of all videos, video-games, music, literature, and pictures that treat of sin in a neutral, gratuitous or positive light. Also banned are literature and graphical materials that seek to separate the procreative functions from their rightful place, between one man and one woman, within the bonds of Sacramental Matrimony, and only when the couple is open to the procreative function.

Do NOT keep banned substances or objects, or objects you cannot legally possess. Do not harbour fugitives. Stop fornication (marital acts between unmarried couples) immediately! Drop extramarital affairs at once! Use the reproductive system only to reproduce! An engagement ring is not a prostitute’s wage. Females, preserve the choicest bridal adornment until you are safely within the bonds of Sacramental Matrimony.

Obtain holy water, customarily furnished to the faithful, simultaneous to a small donation given to Mother Church. Put a small amount of holy water on all items manufactured in pagan, Muslim, Hindu or Buddhist nations. Trace a cross in the air over the item and recite the following (if you’ve been baptized),

I bless this “name of object” , in The Name of The Father, and of The Son, and of The Holy Spirit, to rid it of any enemy spirits acquired in foreign lands. I bind any curse placed on it, meant to cause economic and moral collapse of The United States of America: The Nation Under God! By The Precious Blood of Christ, I bind and dispel them from my home, and seal them in the place of punishment reserved for them at primordium. **

If you repent from sin, the demons will stay outside. They won’t bother you anymore. But sin reopens the door into the demonic realm. The key is to resist temptation as hard as you can, and if it gets the best of you, ask your Heavenly Father for tears, so you can weep for your sins. Don’t premeditate sin. Sincere repentance includes avoiding the near occasion of sin. Claiming preemptive Atonement for future sin is a no-no.

If you want to learn how to do something new, like serve a tennis ball, do it one-at-a-time. Don’t dump 50 tennis balls on the court and keep two in your hand. Clear the whole court, and use one ball. You’ll make the best of each try, because you have to run and get the ball afterward. If you don’t really try, you’ll never get good. If you make two good serves in a row, then you get two balls. If you make both, then you get four at a time.

The same thing goes with confession, Atonement, repentance and Forgiveness! At first, go to confession if you commit even one little but serious sin. Fornication and murder are a different issue. Those must be confessed without hesitation or delay.

Give yourself one chance. If you’re not sorry for sin, wait until you are. The thing is, if a man, or woman, commits a sin but is not aware the act constitutes an offense against Almighty God, when the individual becomes aware that the act was sinful, he/she becomes guilty of sin and must then confess the sin and seek Atonement.

Here’s where some people are going to have it a bit tough. When the soul departs the temporal body, upon physical death, Truth will completely illuminate them. Every sin to which the individual remained ignorant during life shall be revealed, so that The Heavenly Father may be Glorified!

But, after death the soul cannot change. It is fixed. Atonement is available only while the breath of life remains. After death, the only hope for the faithfully departed are the prayers and sufferings offered by the faithful, for the repose of the poor souls in Purgatory.

Everyone will die with some unknown sin on their soul. So, start praying now, for the repose of the poor souls in Purgatory. When your time comes, God will inspire those among the living to offer prayer and supplication for your soul.

And, women, don’t use immodest dress to get a new husband during Mass. The other women will feel threatened when they see their husbands’ reaction. You’ll become the enemy of those you need to be your friends.

Successful wives can teach failed wives how to bear a husband’s yoke with cheerful obedience, so beautiful to the eyes of God. But the vanity of an immodest woman is enemy to the spirit within a righteous man.

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